Cooking Up Memories
Wow! Where did the year go? I would like to apologize for the hiatus in posts.
It was not planned that’s for sure. As many of you know I have been taking physical therapy since my spinal surgery two years ago, however as I prepared to leave for my weekly appointment I started experiencing shortness of breath. As I attempted to get in my wheelchair, I started not being able to breathe. I asked my husband to call 911. I awoke 5 days later having never met the paramedics who came and transported me to hospital. I was in respiratory distress, a breathing tube was inserted and kept in a medically induced coma while testing and stabalizing treatment was given. Luckily the drugs they gave means I remember nothing about this obviously scary time I spent in ICU.
Ten days in step down care before release to a skilled nursing facility. After another twenty days ton make sure prescribed therapy worked I was released to go home on October 30th. As a result I combined my homecoming dinner with my birthday celebration also the 30th. With Thanksgiving fast approaching the stress of the holidays starts creeping in. My answer is to remember just how lucky I am. The main thing I would tell anyone is to cherish the time the we have with family and friends. Instead of coveting toys, gadgets,clothing, or other material items take a brake from the hustle; look around and see all the blessing in your life you have to be thankful for. Friends, family, pets, even a kind word from strangers.
One event that I will never forget ; I think I met my guardian angel during my stay in hospital. After friends, family, visited I have to admit I was feeling really down with fears creeping in. I went to bed that night to shut off my brain from all those stupid thoughts. So 3am comes around and they collect blood for laboratory testing. The room was freezing, this beautiful young girl felt how cold my hand was she was encouraging me to get warm. I’m not proud of it but I was feeling pretty low and I just did not care which way it ended. She stayed with me. Held and rubbed my hand to warm it. She only left long enough to get some heated blankets. The rest of the time she held my hand and sought to reassure me that I would be deeply missed in this world. This girl didn’t know me at all. I’ve never had someone touch my life so profoundly. I try to make it a point to leave nothing unsaid. When I told her how mush her gestures and caring touched me she replied that she was just glad that she could help. After making me feel better she collected her sample, encouraged me to get some more rest because the sun was gonna come up soon enough. When my door closed the biggest thought was this bright light in this world just left me and I didn’t even know her name.
I’m happy to say I related this to my wonderful nurse and she agreed that it was in deed special. She helped me find out her name and since patients do not talk directly to their supervisor I could mention her in glowing terms in the follow-up survey following my stay. Wherever you are Whitney I want you to know how special you are. I hope this holiday season is indeed magical. If by some chance you get to read this please know how special you are and I hope you continue being a light in this sometimes dark world.
As we move into the holiday season I hope the world benefits from many more just like her. I have many people who are special to me and I have seen evidence of how simple gestures can touch the lives of others but this is probably the first time I have been so profoundly touched by a stranger. I hope there are many more like her and they continue sharing that special gift with the world.
I made it !! I just had my 36th Birthday! Anyone who is close to me knows that not too long ago the goal was to reach this age. I’m not going to say its been easy… I would like to think i’ve weathered the last few years withpoise and grace. Overall I believe i’ve done rather well, even when thoroughly aggravated or hit a low spot along the way . What started as a stroke via a burst vessel in my brain, is now a long recovery where we didn’t know how much damage there would be to regaining normal vision and balance. I had to have specialized therapy to drink normal beverages and to walk again. All the therapy and another brain surgery to remove some of the things that initially saved my life. Turns out the tube had been giving me aweful dizziness and vertigo symptoms sometime just sitting up in bed. That is how i spent my birthday one year later. Last year my Christmas was spent clearing more complications this time in the form of a cyst from the original bleed that as it grew unoticed pressed on my spinal cord cutting off the messages my brain sent to my legs. I was so excited when post surgery and enough drugs to stand sitting up i could wiggle my toes. I had read of people s o happy they cried but this was my first experience with that kind of joy. Why am i telling you all this? I implore people to stop living with regrets and procrastinación about your feelings. Embrace how you feel and live the gift of life you’ve been given . Smile, laugh, cry, express your feelings , don’t wait to say i love you, do not hesitate to clear the air with those closest to you. Start with the general stuff as we focus on giving thanks, endevore to make it a habit to look at all we have to be thankful for the whole year long. Moms and dad’s, granparents, aunts and uncles, friends and coworkers, and most of all everyday you wake up to the prescious gift of children. I have a new niece and nephew to spoil and my brothers oldest daughter who will start school soon. I am so blessed that i get to meet them and watch them grow. So as the hustle of the holidays begins, remember to take time to appreciate all the blessings you already have . Siblings, parents, friends, aunts, and uncles, never miss the chance to tell them how special they are to you.